Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Life has changed...

Life has changed since mom's memory is slipping away. Seems like I should be getting use to it but it still shocks me when she says, "Who are you?" Sometimes she asks if I have a guy or shows me my wedding picture and says, "Look at this. These are my kids." I have been married 17 years to a loving, supportive husband who has always been there to help my parents. I am sad that her memories of us are gone.

I know everyone says, "Just stay in the moment and enjoy your time with her." But there are times when I just want to cry and I do...what's the hardest thing?...well, it changes...but mostly I'm just scared of tomorrow...then what?...how will all these decisions pan out?...and then there is my sweet loving dad. He is amazing. Mom hasn't forgotten him and is always wondering what he is doing if he is not in sight. Dad has been diagnosed with prostate cancer and I am literally waiting to hear the phone ring to find out if it has spread.

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Jesus Chirst. 1 Thessalonians 5