This has been a very difficult month. I've always believed that God is in control & that he was directing my steps on this journey. About 7 weeks ago, I visited the nursing home for the first time with Kenny. Since then Bonnie & Dad have gone with me. Mom has been declining & I have talked a lot about her with the social worker at the N.H. They had an opening on December 21 and although it seemed too soon, it also seemed like it was perfect timing considering mom's decline. Dad agreed that she had been changing and Bonnie was very concerned for her safety.
Bonnie and I took mom on Monday. I can't believe my mom is in the nursing home and that I am the one that took her there. How can something so right seem so awful. We are all crying often and Dad feels terrible. I know it is the best care for mom and she seems to be adjusting without a lot of upset. I only hope that she continues to adjust and that the rest of us can too.
I'm sorry that I couldn't have done more for my parents but I'm at the end of my rope.